Away For the Weekend
The girls and I are heading off to Palmerston North this morning to do a little shopping *gah* and have dinner with Sharon’s partner who lives down there.
I know it will do me good to get away for a little while, but in the grand scheme of things I just really can’t be bothered. I’d rather go back to bed, shut the curtains and make the World go away until Monday when I have to deal with it again.
I still feel so fucking awful about how I've hurt “M”. In fact I made myself physically ill yesterday thinking about it. How in hell did I become such a shallow bitch? Why in hell can't I see past the physical (which has got me into trouble in the past) and go with someone who meets me on a emotional level? Why? Why? Why? I don't deserve him, and he deserves so much more than me.
I know it will do me good to get away for a little while, but in the grand scheme of things I just really can’t be bothered. I’d rather go back to bed, shut the curtains and make the World go away until Monday when I have to deal with it again.
I still feel so fucking awful about how I've hurt “M”. In fact I made myself physically ill yesterday thinking about it. How in hell did I become such a shallow bitch? Why in hell can't I see past the physical (which has got me into trouble in the past) and go with someone who meets me on a emotional level? Why? Why? Why? I don't deserve him, and he deserves so much more than me.
posted by Kiwigirl @ 7:45 AM
1 Comments:
There are no easy answers here, but do know that I am thinking of you. ;)
And, I, personally, have never thought of you as shallow.
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